Note to Emma

My dear wife Emma...

I never said this but I know one day you will read this, insyaAllah...

You came to my life unexpectedly and through short courtship, we got married... even then, we go through rough patches before we officially pronounced as husband and wife...

Our union is very much fated by Allah swt and I've done countless istiqarah and despite of me trying to abort the marriage by leaving you for 3 months without any news, we still meet one day unexpectedly...

I know it is very tough to be a second wife & honestly you deserve better than what you get now... but to me, you had done extremely well...

You may look beautiful/photogenic, but to me, it was your attitude and sincere heart that capture me... I never say this but I know you are very sincere through my observation and test I've put upon you... Your patience with my attitude and my family attitude is something that I greatly admire...

There are so many instances when you sacrifice your own feelings and rights just to ensure I can give more time & attention to my first family. Despite of what others said and do to you, you still smile and generous to them is another factor that really amazed me... You still showered them with your doa and prizes during their special day despite of knowing that your prizes may not be accepted by them... You are the ones that bought some of the prizes for me to give to my family which most people thought it was from me... Thanks dear, I really appreciate it...

Some people think that you came to my life and had taken part of my money or wealth from my family... only Allah swt and me know that it was you that been helping me tirelessly despite of brickbats you got from my family... I salute you dear... My pray is for Allah swt to bless you more based on your sincerity & honesty.

Alhamdulillah, today, my mom & sis had seen your sincerity and had praised you... Honestly, I never say much about you, the only thing that I asked my mom to do is to pray and seek Allah swt guidance about you... I ask her because mother's doa and prayers is the most 'afdal'... Her praise & attitude towards you answered everything...

My advice to you, keep on being sincere and insyaAllah one day, people will see your sincerity just the way I saw it... Whatever you had gone through is actually Allah swt way of showing me your true character...

Dear,

I marry you initially solely because I want to guide you and ensure your faith towards Islamic teaching remain in tact... Your past experience and test you had gone through almost makes you lost faith in Allah swt...

Alhamdulillah, I succeed in doing that in my small way... Seeing you started praying and recite Quran and Yassin is a good start... InsyaAllah in near future I will instill more in you...

I know how much you really wanted to perform Umrah but sacrifice your desire to paved way for me to bring Kak Myza... I remember that and insyaAllah, you will be there one day...

Your patience in many things is something that had not gone unnotice... I may not say it, but I know and appreciate it... Whenever I saw that, I pray to Allah swt to blessed you more...

Your attitude and honesty had now makes me loves you so much and whatever it is, I will always forgive you for any mistakes you may have with me...

My only gift that I can give you to date is none other than our own prince, Rayyan Zarif Sazali... he is my 100% duplicate and should I'm no longer around, he will always remind you of me...

Thanks for being my wife, patience with my attitude and loving me whole heartedly dear... i can never repay your sacrifice but I know Allah swt will reward you accordingly...

Wassalam